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10:04pm 24/03/2005
 
mood: empty
I feel like im going through a bad divorce or something.
life sucks.
when am i going to feel better?!!!!
 
     
 
so pack a change of clothes cause it's time to move on.   
12:44am 19/03/2005
 
mood: sad
I just came home from one of the most torturous evenings of my life.
My best friend Sarah is moving, shes been sick all day. Clay and I packed up her whole room.
Her mom doesn't know why shes sad. I am just realizing that in a couple days if I feel like picking her up for dinner or something it can't happen. I'm going to see her in a couple weeks most likely in Texas. But what some people don't understand is that I am upset because I spend a majority of my time with her and shes always there for me unlike most of my friends. So when shes gone i really don't know what I am going to do.
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6 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
08:12pm 06/03/2005
 
mood: cheerful
I desperately need a new car, it's almost funny.
I am very happy right now because sarah and I did some damn productive shopping today.
Last night andrew and I saw hitch, it was ridiculously cute.
I just realized that tommorrow I have class and other arrands to run and I don't know how thats going to work when I have been driving my moms car and she will be at work...
oh well I'm going to aunt deb's now, loving it.
 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
02:49pm 05/03/2005
 
mood: mellow

I'm sitting in my room with sarah and clay. We went to brunch a little while ago. Dodgeball didn't go down this afternoon because people we hung over and unorganized. Some day... The Capri's are going to strut their daisy dukes. last night was very fun. The only reason that I am not happy right now is because my baby is movin' to texas!! In a week, sarah will be gone and I don't know what to say.

 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
12:46pm 02/03/2005
 
mood: apathetic
Over the weekend I had about five hours of sleep and 7 hours of work, now I'm sleeping in an awful lot durring the week. I went to ikea and bought lots of wonderful things with taryn the other day. I really want to find a desk job. I hate the hours that I have at the pharmacy.

Last night I had 3 dreams. In the first one me and a few other people were in greene records but it wasn't really greene and if you walked out the back dor there was this beautiful tropical city and an ocean. I wish this was so cos I live right down the street from greene. In the second one I went to see HIM and Ville Valo wanted to make me his pa for some reason, I could dig that. In the other one I dreampt that the inside of my house looked like my aunts old appartment and we had this room I never noticed and I decided to make it my bedroom.

I'm tired and I love my room. I'm off to pick up sarah then I have work in 4 hours.
 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
11:28pm 10/02/2005
  I'm so stressed out that I could be sick.
I want to crawl in a whole and die.
 
     
1 lie| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
11:28pm 30/01/2005
 
mood: peaceful
This weekend was amazing.
I love adventures with paul, scary movies with elyse, and my family.
I also love dogs, old friends and new ones. good times.
 
     
1 lie| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
11:27am 21/01/2005
 
mood: stressed
Life is driving me insane right now. I need to make a list of why that is.
-Being a procrastinator.
-Having to work for the store instead of the pharmacy for the next week.
-Saying goodbye.
-Having a small ass paycheck.
-Figuring out how to get to my aunts Pimp and hoe birthday party and My friends last show, in the same night.

+Possibly getting a second job.
+Having wonderful friends.
+Getting along with the family.
+Looking forward to being sarah's winter formal date.
+Being able to relax after this next week.

I don't know if that last plus will happen it's going to be hard for me to survive this week.
 
     
1 lie| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
gooood stuff   
12:17am 19/01/2005
 
mood: sad

So this past weekend was pretty wonderful. I went to sd on saturday and hung out with my friend ryan and the crush. We went to this sweet record store and I bought 2 cds that I had burned copies of, which were too scratched for listening. They were The Lost Patrol's Songs About Running Away and Broken Social Scene's You Forgot It In People. I have not been able to put them away since then. Later on Paul and Kyle drove down to hang out with us. That night I fell asleep in some ones arms and stayed that way. I highly reccomend sleeping with others.

The next day we went on Ryan's Dad's boat the whole day. It was a fun little adventure. we went from newport to longbeach and I took lots of pictures with my new sidekick.

best dayCollapse )
 
     
5 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
10:28am 14/01/2005
 
mood: awake
I have a new crush, its very good news.
 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
05:10pm 18/12/2004
 
mood: lazy
I chose to be a bum today. Im wearing pjs its 5:11, i never got around to straightening my hair. no one has called me. lucas did this morning actually. I need to wrap the few presents i already have purchased. i have a slight headache. i will probably be up all night doing nothing. The capitalized "i's" in this paragraph are way too random.
 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
hahaha   
05:04pm 18/12/2004
  "Now there are a lot of women out there who don't find jude law sexually attractive, they're called lesbians."  
     
1 lie| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck   
01:14am 18/12/2004
 
mood: sad
I feel like shit.
I think its weird how i believe that that is irreversible right now.
 
     
2 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
Paul says I have a lot of del taco, or self respect, one of the two.   
05:55pm 12/12/2004
 
mood: sad
Last night i stayed over at karyn's house. It was pretty fun in general, besides neil hating on me. i think i enjoyed myself a little more when there were less people around but i'm supposing that was just my mood. i adore karyn (thank you so much my dear and im still so so sorry). This morning karyn, paul, and i had breakfast at coco's,then went to tower, my house, and tall mouse. It was a fairly eventful day considering the fact that we slept through half of it and i still feel like shit. right now i am extremely behind in school and i am not sure just when i plan on catching up. I have work tommorrow, i'm so tired, and i am just hoping that i will be in a better mood when i wake up.

</3 lish
 
     
6 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
10:04pm 07/12/2004
 
mood: excited
I am soo crushing right now, eeek :)



Work sucks, but I love working with kelly.
Everyone should get their drugs at my pharmacy, cos i'm nice.
 
     
12 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
and love said no   
12:59pm 05/12/2004
 
mood: relaxed
Last night tony, paul, and I saw HIM at the wiltern, it was kind of a foreign experience.
We sat in the lobby until HIM came on and we talked shit on almost everyone. IT was really that bad. I wish everyone had the pleasure of laughing at those people. Vile is amazing and I adored watching their set even though a drunken mother was screaming behind us.
 
     
because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
tony brings the mosh.   
01:59pm 28/11/2004
 
mood: awake
I woke up in my aunts house in san diego to my phone ringing..
I answer it and it Tony who happens to be sleeping on the couch in the room 15 feet away from me.
The funny thing is we continue to have a conversation for like 5 minutes until I decide to get up.

We saw Craddle/bt/arch enemy and missed himsa sadly. We didn't get any merch either cos it was fucking expensive. It was fun anyways just because.

Oh and im not down with smelly fat mexican metal kids from san diego, nor the 14 year olds who threw french fries at me while talking about straight edge...
 
     
1 lie| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
I can't even believe myself.   
11:25pm 04/11/2004
 
mood: stressed
I'm stressing, only because I'm so stupid and I have been sooo lazy about school. My teacher even gave me extra time to do this research project and it is going to be late. I hate it when I do this sort of shit. It would have been so simple if I just did it when I was supposed to.

I have a job!
At Long's Drugs in the pharmacy. So I have work all day tomorrow, but I have a fucking job, amazing.

Tomorrow Tony and I are going to koo's unless we get lazy. I will definately do my project after that though.
 
     
3 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
   
10:55pm 27/10/2004
  The rain is amazing. Last night lucas and I sat on my roof while it started to rain it was nice and gloomy outside. I love it.  
     
2 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets
 
I'm back   
10:55pm 25/10/2004
 
mood: dizzy
I think it is so amazing that I haven't used livejournal at all since school started. I have no idea how that happened. Its actually pretty lame since I'm sure there was plenty to write about. I was sick again this week, first time since that last entry. I think its funny how I can't go more than 2 months without being sick.

eww
It smells like swiss army in my room right now, i have no idea why. and it is really really bothering me. The only person I know who wears that has not been here since friday and probably won't ever be here again. I have noticed that I link scents to memories more than anything else. Like songs or places don't really stand out but scents always make me think of something specifically.

school
I don't go to Tustin High anymore. I started Independent Studies a few weeks ago. I like it a lot and I'm still always busy but not in school so thats good.

lately
There has been some drama around me and I really don't care for that brand of bullshit, but people seem to think I do. I have been spending most of my time with Paul and Tony. Its quite fun, but I haven't really spent any time with sarah in forever. It's weird because I used to spend so much time with her. For a while now I've been spending all my time with guys. I thought maybe it was just impossible for me to get along with anyone of the same sex, until last week. I hung out with this girl Kristin and we have been hanging out a lot since then, it's a relief.

For some weird reason Tony has seemed more human lately, can't describe it but it is very interesting to witness. I feel like I'm wrapped up in a cycle right now, I'm dizzy. I need to wake up in the morning and do things differently. Or maybe the scent in my room is just making me feel suffocated. I'm not sure but I need something.
 
     
9 lies| because the softest lips tell the most precious secrets