so i slept all week until last night. i woke up and went to see the cure, interpol, and cursive with my dear brother tony. It was a foreign experience you could say. I have never been to a big "concert" like that. It was a lot of fun tho. who could miss seeing fat mexican men smoking weed in the middle of a crowd? not me.

I am almost not sick anymore.. yessss.

Sadly school starts monday i am really unhappy about this but i have decided to try to enjoy the school year by keeping myself in a summer state of mind. or in other words i will go to school but not do anything school related outside school home work at all. I kind of pulled that off last year. maybe i can do it with more grace this time or better grades.
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    the faint - desperate guys


im sooooooo sick, so fucking miserable.
i have toncilitus(sp?) really bad this time and i had an allergic reaction to the goddamn medicine they gave me yay.
it keeps me up all night im so freaked out.
i feel like im dying.

i love my twin she came over and took care of me yesterday. shes amazing duh.i love it when my friends are so good to me when im sick it makes me feel better.

always somethin there to remind me.

I have had a really good couple of days.
Ryan came to visit yesterday cos hes going back to school pretty soon. He lucas, and lucas' friend casey picked me up and we went to the spectrum to shop and see the village again. my twin visited us while we were there.<3. later lucas, ryan and i road bikes around town and bought cake mix. Some people shouted and waved at us so apparently tustin crew has fans. mhm. they spent the night and we watched 13 going on 30! and baked the cake. I wrote happy troll on it. and lucas and i danced to 80s music. in the morning we watched cruel intentions :(. This afternoon they left and i was pretty lazy all day.

at 7 sarah came over we left to ride bikes at 8 and went to this park we dont usually go to. They were happening to have a movie in the park night so we watched homeward bound for a bit and ran into some kids from school. then we went to kmart and got icees. my mom called me to see if i wanted to watch this 1986 movie called Nothing In Common with tom hanks. It was really good. I watched more than one sad movie in a day, and that must be bad for you cos it made me pretty sad.

I think i want to get a pet, but i some times get an urge to get a pet. but then i realize i dont know if i could really take care of anything cos i hate smells and mess. so naturally i dont think i could have a dog or a cat. i like them though. i like birds too but they are noisey. maybe i will get an iguana.

Reasons why I hate that summer is almost over...

So i realized today that this summer is going by depressingly fast. I have less than a month left. There were a number of people that i really like but never hung out with more than once or twice. I didn't even notice that until now.. I don't even see how that happened. The list is too long.. even some of my best friends i barely hang out with. You are most likely on the list.

so things to do before school//

hang out with people on my list

get a job!!!

shop a lot.

I have been home since 8 this evening by the way
It was a complicated change of plans, as always with my family. We ended up cleaning the house we stayed at and leaving aroud 2 something.. I feel really bad we left when the Robins weren't even home so we didn't get to say bye and im goin to miss them :(. The vacation was good, i wish i hadn't slept in so much. Im glad to be home but i some what wish i was still in bass lake.
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    badly drawn boy - fall in a river


So my vacation is really nice still, and the robins are really funny. Last night we ate at this wierd place called the forks.Things are good, all of the sudden i am feeling really fucking sad tho. I don't know how this comes on at all. feeling really lonely when im surrounded by people.. its just uncomfortable. so empty empty empty. I never really think anything is real, or anyone cares. I don't get me.

(i miss tony too!! i should have brought him with dammit!)
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    heart - these dreams

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I am soooo sore right now, but still enjoying myself. Every one is so pleasant. its cute. water skis are so fucking fun, paul was driving and spun around and i wasn't exactly expecting it and i flew into the air and died and shit.. it was so funny though i was laughing in the water and i coulnt get back on because i kept falling. I wish i could stay here longer. The people we know that have a house on the water stay all summer, they are really funny too.
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    tv on the radio- the wrong way

such a good start.

I have a wireless signal! amazing. I am loving this vacation already. sarah and I are somewhat soar from being tossed around in an intertube on the lake. It was quite funny on the ride up here to hear my brother listening to terror, hes 11. but yay im having fun on a vacation, with my family, its a miracle! Im going to sleep. I wish I could feel so good all the time.
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    bright eyes- i watched you taking off

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The \\
Last Cigarette:quite a while ago
Last Alcoholic Drink:don't drink
Last Car Ride:11:51 pm
Last Kiss:i don't remember
Last Good Cry:a couple days ago
Last Library Book:Julius Ceasar
Last book bought:Victor E. Frankl's Man's Search for Meaning
Last Book Read:Brave New World
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:Napoleon Dynamite (again)
Last Movie Rented:The Dreamers
Last Cuss Word Uttered:fuck head
Last Beverage Drank:A vanilla milk shake
Last Food Consumed:curly fries
Last Crush:
Last Phone Call:CASEY!
Last TV Show Watched:winnie the pooh.
Last Time Showered:5:30 pm
Last Shoes Worn:those little asian shoes
Last CD Played:rjd2
Last Item Bought:milk shake
Last Download:cyndi lauper- time after time
Last Annoyance:she who i would rather not name
Last Disappointment:not hanging out with sooome oen
Last Soda Drank:sprite
Last Thing Written:night
Last Key Used:car key
Last Words Spoken:i love garfield.
Last Sleep:earlier today
Last Ice Cream Eaten:vanilla ice cream sandwich
Last Chair Sat In:the green one
Last Webpage Visited:live journal



My friend Kyle has moved back from indiana or wherever the fuck he was living. I ran into him tonight at Pat and Oscars with sarah and amelia. He is going shopping with my mom and I tomorrow.

I have had a good time in the past couple weeks with different people. I don't think there is any need for detail about that. I actually like meeting people after the awkward silence fades and conversation gets going.

I bought myself an easel the other day. I am going to start painting more. I still haven't tried looking for a job again, im thinking about just breaking down and applying at party city. At least that way I could work with some one i know, brandon amey(yeowuh).
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    Twista - overnight celebrity